But in this dream I was excitedly telling a new, potentially massive customer about our seasonal flower line up, listing off all of my favorite’s babies from early spring on. This list is long, very long. I have a lot of favorites! The buyer in the dream looked quite overwhelmed but I’m used to that, so on I rambled about anemones, ranunculus, poppies, sweet peas, roses, lilies…. I overwhelm people. A lot!
I think it’s the combination of so much excitement, out of control passion and possibly the sweeping hand gestures as I describe what it smells like in the sweet pea greenhouse at sunrise or how amazing it feels to walk through a field of dahlias at dusk. Well, maybe it’s all of that and the occasional detour into the land of swearing. I’ve really made an effort this year to curb my mouth, at least out around other humans. The look of terror in a pretty bride’s eyes as you drop the f-bomb when describing how awesome a particular parrot tulip is kind of sucks.
But it’s so hard being good! Most of the time I feel like a complete imposter, like an alien in a human body trying to fit in, act appropriate and not be “found out”. Ugh, being good is sooooo boring! But, I want my business to keep on rockin, I want brides to feel comfortable and customers to be at ease so I’m keeping a lid on it. I like to tell myself that being “good” is a strategy ; ) Inside I will always be a foul mouthed, totally awkward, alien!