A friend called this morning and prodded me that I hadn’t posted in awhile. Ugh. She suggested that maybe I should make myself a blogging schedule so that I can be a bit more consistent. Ha! Yeah freaking right!
I tried to explain that eating and getting enough sleep have been my primary struggle these days. That yesterday I cut and packed flowers for 12 hours straight, alone, in a wind storm. That I’m getting up at 5:00 every morning to take an online business class before the real work of the day begins. That Mother’s Day is just around the corner and I’m coordinating 8 pallets of shipping boxes, a monster order of bouquets and estimating quantities based around the changing weather. Or how much energy I’m using feeling guilty about being behind on all of my Floret emails because so many people are asking about shipping and summer weddings.
All wonderful things, exciting things but the more I rattled off the craziness, the more frustrated and tense I felt. The truth is I’m feeling totally overwhelmed and exhausted! I want to have it all together and be totally cool but today I’m just coming up short.
I think the real problem is I haven’t been making my needs a priority. I’ve been reverting back to my old ways of using stress and adrenalin to surge me forward with no real care about the impact it has on me both emotionally and physically. Not the way I want to live or the way I want to be anymore.
It’s time to stop, get out this week’s homework from my life coach Corina and realign.
Step one: remember, I am first!
Oh yeah, I totally forgot ; )